Spiritual Healing: Receiving an Influx

Receiving an Influx is an 'Awful' Feeling.

"We live in the midst of invisible forces whose effects alone we perceive. We move among invisible forms whose actions we very often do not perceive at all, though we may be profoundly affected by them." -- Dion Fortune, "Psychic Self-Defense"

To think spiritually, is to think without time and space.

An influx is everything we are not. It is the opposite energy that personality feels as itself. It is one aspect of a dual force. To become aware of it puts personality's survival at risk - by beginning the process of transmutation. As personality is weakened, awareness of the influx strengthens. The process of transmutation can be long and difficult until personality is fully aligned.

An influx is felt, or only reveals itself when personality is fully formed. Like a solid object when struck must be solid to hold the vibration, so too must personality be fully itself. Being fully itself is being full of itself - all ego. Then transformation from the little separate ego to the fully conscious Self can begin.

The process is a surrendering or sacrifice caused by an unfulfilled life. The searching for life meaning, or an event, or crisis brings the little ego to its' knees - a state of not knowing, a turning inward and letting go.

Then at the point of deepest despair (the dark night of the soul) a realization of something more powerful than our own fullness strikes. It has many sensations and a vast collection of imagery connected to it from the unconscious, but it strikes and you know it. You are no longer the same person, and a process has begun.

Although a process has begun, it feels like an ending, for the sensation that personality has identified with being itself is what is transformed. The process can go on for years, and does, or seems like it does until eventually personality desires to re-experience it continuously.

Eventually the sensation that the little ego had identified with has been replaced by a new feeling sense of self. This new identification is also a new feeling - not intellectually understood but only understood as an energy of the heart.

The dying process that personality experiences is eventually understood as a new sense of self. But until this new self is fully conscious, each influx, although a revitalization of the cellular nature, is felt like destruction - and the process is an 'awful' feeling until it is fully Itself.